Once upon a Crime ...

The hospital I enter in,
Clocked in, time to let the fun begin. 
Got my coffee in hand. 
Stethoscope around neck,
For breath sounds check
Still early, but I'm awake
Headache from last night drinking
I try to shake from 2 motrins I take 
At Bed 1: I overheard a woman say
"Dear Lord dont take my baby today" 
As I watch the mother pray standing over her son shot in the chest and face
On life support sedated , restrained because he's altered and agitated 
Barely making it 
Vital signs, sometimes falling behind, 
The 2 blood transfusions seem to have helped him 
Semi stabilized
The only thing saved him was his hand that took most of the shots, 4 fingers now lost, 
as it blocked his head, his last words before we intubated 
He said Was " please, don't let me die please... " soo many young men watched deceased 
Watched mothers scream, yell 
WHY as they cling to their son and his bloody sheets 
And again tomorrow it repeats
The hardest are never the ones on the streets or on a HIPHOP beat
But the family's in pain , dealing with a loved one slained
If u only see what we see, 
Theres more to the story, never No glory
Life is meerily not a dream
Like once upon a time, 
More like once upon a crime
No time to wipes my eyes, 
In my room 2
I got a baby by the age of 2
Bruised and sexually abused by mommys boyfriend 
Drunk after drinking dry gin
...He did it again 
Who's to blame the boyfriend?
Or mommy thats sick, 
With tummy tuck and fake tits, again pregnant, abortion 6 times, still smoking cigarettes 
Positive for cocaine 
Cuz she can give a shit
Only cares about smoking crack, sucking dick, 
when she gonna learn ?
And gets offended 
By questions from social Work, like " WEre did your baby get these cigarette burns ?" 
Another chapter, to another page it's turned
Each day is a something new, each day is another issue, 
Some is funny shit 
I dare not kid you
Like this one guy coming in all high , feeling he's gonna die 
Anxious & restless 
Telling me, he ate for the first time, weed brownies
I tell em 
" look theres other people with bigger problems, I'll be right with You just have a seat
Stop acting HP"
He says HP ? 
I say classic symptoms, of Hispanic Panic "definitely 
acting like "I can't Brief" ...
Maybe not too funny, but that shots funny to me
But time...
Take my break, outside
For a small breather for relief
Say to myself "good grief" 
But I know , tomorrow is never promised, &
take the moment to say thank you, 
tell a love one "Love you", and
Course to the one above you
don't be a thug, give a hug lol
But not to the wrong one, just might catch a slug
or from a female "catch the bug"
Today might be our last
but it's only a guess, treat each other with respect
And love never forget..
Damn ...5 minutes late
Gotta clock back in ..

The SNiper

I awoke early this morning.. 
3am in fact 
I wasn't exact, But I felt Anxious.. 
Today is the day, I will let my plan play 
Plant the seed to my foreplay 
of torture and pain 
Chaos and Dismay 
and Stand over the aftermath of bodies as they lay...slained 
Soiled in their pain 
I take an Ativan, go back to sleep and pray 
Pray for forgiveness.... to those 
with food and No Clothes 
Those with heaters but its really a stove 
those materialistic, f*ck*d up threw up and twisted living like clones 
Those ALive but like me... 
lare Alone 
6am im in my home, now fresh and dressed 
Tuck in my chrome 
finished up my Eggs & ham 
Put on the ammo belt around my waist 
Pack up the remainding to my Duffle bag, 
Silencer to back pocket, 
while I let my pants sag 
To the cigarette... 
I take the last drag 
Say to myself " theres nothing to fear, theres nothing to fear" 
Splash some water to my face as I shave looking at the mirror 
Packed, now im out, on my route 
Its New YEars Day, SO I know Alot of people will be around 
Before the malice 
I need some practive, Stopped at a nearby liqour store, 
grabbed some Seagrams and 7up, 
If tonights my night, then Im gonna get f*ck*d up. 
Walked to the counter, 
The man stares and tells me the price, 
I pay it no mind, throw at his face quarters and dimes, 
He yells " Buddy, You better pay for this?!" 
f*ck off, As I walk out, 
The man along with me steps out, I let 2 shots rang out, and 
d*mn I couldn't believe it, his brains popped out ! 
HAHAHAH 
I laugh and smirk to the nearby crowd, 
Place the silencer on, so now there wouldn't be louder sounds, only screams!! 
Commence the show, for the horror scenes ! 
....I shake, I shake, my eyes twitch, 
I scream !!! 
Sweaty in my sheets 
It was all.... 
a bad dream. 
I pour myself a cup of coffee, 
Because I dare not go back to sleep 

My Instagram

Just listening to my Thoughts

Life is sweet afterall
No matter what anybody says
Live life till you decay, while your alive today,
turn the city upside and round
Upside down the frowns
... Now ... I in a "new" life has been found
cherish while your still around
while I forever will be the clown, smiles and laughter
My children see my Pasture I lay
foundation through my love, my fear an love to the GOD above,
may he bless the time left in the hour glass 
Though @ times I might live it " fast" through my rebellious ways, 
Voodo child , I must say :) 
Dancing at times under the rain,
Hard to explain.., but let me explain
Let me be free, chilling asleep on the sands of the beach
Sounds of waves & wake up and read
Wake up drink and fall back asleep
But just let me breath
Release. And vent the cold I feel when I can't reveal
Its like life is twisted and disgusting
Everyone acting corrupt 
I can give a fuck
Except for my children
Just listen at my thoughts
No one feels like I do
So I'm soiled in my plots 
Strange stage of disarray 
Where I'm the observer 
The one that people don't care if the world runs over 
Kiss me right where I bend over
I happen to evade in the shade as the loner
)

Young and Rebellious

{{{WRote @ AGE 20 }}}
Where are we going? What are we really knowing showing?
When everyday can and will go wrong
Too many people singing sad songs….
Motheres at work feeding babies that aren’t raised in church
Father’s escaping the pain into liquor rain
Like medication of cool relaxation
No sense of finding the truth
Lord save the blundered youth, who don’t know No truth
Only what is seen, I told not to do
Do as I say, not as I portray
So at a young age I roamed stray
Played and escaped my communities violence
Hid my expressions in silence
And fought back in pen an paper
Write another thought into the blank page
Letting all feelings detonate like a grenade