Disdain

Fuck what I've been through 
nobody knows my sorrows or pain, 
I don't display 
so I keep it all locked inside my brain, 
because it keeps me sane 
In Disdain, 
hard to make me feel ashamed 
I chill in the shade 
Were others want to see light, 
f*k the light 
In the darkness I see what's bright 
Close my eyes to see in vivid eyesight 
20/15 , 
I hate how tonight makes me feel, 
Almost like I wanna kill 
blood spill 
I guess I might need help 
f*k everyone, decayed is my health 
I'm a die in low wealth 
Why have someone, when you end up dying by yourself? 
put my game face 
Because, these are the cards I've been delt